90 Day LDR Challenge: Day 34

Day 34: What are some negative impacts you feel distance has made on your relationship?

Cat: I really feel like this LDR has had more of a positive impact on our relationship more so than a negative impact. We loved living together, but we lived with each other while we were both doing our master’s. It was pretty stressful, and towards the end, things got tough… But we made it through the storm, and while being in a LDR sounds like the thing that would really tear us apart, it really brought us closer together and made us stronger as individuals and as a couple. I think it has given us clarity in a way we had not yet. Babe?

Richard: Yeah, exactly what you said, babe. I can only say that it’s difficult when I really need a cuddle, but I know we’re strong as ever. šŸ™‚

793 miles stronger.

paulinarosanne:

Being a 21 year old I am still definitely trying to find myself as a person.Ā 

With Skyler being roughly 800 miles away I can’t just drive to see him when I need or want. Which can be tough sometimes because sadly I’m not the most independent person. I can be very insecure when it comes to who I am and who I want to be. When things get rough in my life it is really hard to not have Skyler right there to just comfort me.Ā 

As some of you may have remembered from my previous post my dad was very ill, sadly he passed away the other day. With Skyler not being here I had to find the strength in myself to not slowly break down into a hot mess. I couldn’t just hide out away from the world no matter how badly I wanted to because I have other obligations and responsibilities such as school and work.Ā 

Unfortunately though Skyler suffered from it. I was becoming distant from him as well as my friends. I just didn’t know what to do or what to say. Of course they’d all have their sympathetic looks, and condolences which are always appreciated. I just didn’t know if I’d be able to handle it. It took me a few days to get passed the initial grief and sadness, not that it ever fully goes away. I started to become myself a little bit more and more every day.

Being in an LDR I can often feel like I’m alone most of the time, I want to be that couple you see holding hands, and giving each other those loving glances. I used to wonder is this even a real relationship without the physical and intimate parts of it. I began to get really insecure, but the longer Skyler and I are together the more and more I learn about myself. I learned that even if its harder to be on my own without him right there, I can still do it. He may not physically be there but he is in all the ways he can. I’m not too bad of company for myself. šŸ˜‰

Not that I don’t want to close the distance between Skyler and I, because I do more than anything. But right now I’m able to focus on finishing my degree and then we can see whats nextt. I’ve learned from being in this relationship I am a lot more capable than I used to give myself credit for. It helps that Skyler never lets me believe otherwise, his constant love and support has helped push me to finish school, and further other goals.Ā 

I’ve learned how to become much more trusting and open in our relationship. From previous bad relationships I’ve had severe trust issues, and being in a long distance relationship you can’t have that or it will slowly kill your relationship. I’ve never been the kind of person to speak my mind, I’m very timid and in blatant terms a push over. Skyler has helped me come through that a little bit by making me speak about things that are bother me in our relationship instead of just pushing them under the rug until it gets to be to much,Ā 

Being in a LDR definitley is helping me grow more and more into finding the person I hope to become some day.Ā 

Inspired by this LDR Writing Prompt: Self Strength

90 Day LDR Challenge: Day 30

Day 30: If you two could go anywhere in the world together where would it be and why?

Cat:Ā Somewhere tropical!! That’s why I reblog a lot of pictures of the beach or tropical getaways on here. A week or two somewhere tropical in a gorgeous resort with Richard sounds like heaven to me.

Richard:Ā We keep talking about going Bora Bora for our honeymoon or for an expensive holiday.Ā 

Cat: I love how those are essentially the same thing, ha!Ā 

Richard: You know what I mean, nummins… It looks so serene there and somewhere to get away from the world and totally relax. Otherwise, I’d love to go travelling in France together and go to the mecca of French culture: Disney Land Paris ;D

Cat: Ladies and gentlemen, the love of my life…

90 Day LDR Challenge: Day 29

Day 29: Do you remember what you were both wearing the first time you video chatted (or saw each other)?

(Note: We decided to answer this question without knowing what the other person answered just to see what we would come up with on our own…)

Cat:Ā Okay, the first time we met I was wearing jeans, a black long-sleeved shirt, brown booties and a burgundy leather jacket. I’m think Richard was wearing jeans, a black t-shirt, and a grey jacket?

Richard:Ā We didn’t actually video chat before we met (I was shy.), but I believe I was wearing jeans, a leather jacket and a shirt. And Cat was wearing a maroon leather jacket and dark red pants(?).

Okay so it wasn’t a slam dunk, BUTĀ we still sorta remember after almost 3 years, haha!

Our Top Ten Songs

Seeing so many posts yesterday about the top ten songs that remind everyone of their SOs and their LDRs made me think about the songs that make me think of Richard and our relationship.

Keep reading to check them out!

Mirrors – Justin Timberlake

I’m lookin’ right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold

When Justin Timberlake wrote The 20/20 Experience it was so clear just how deeply in love he was with his wife and now mother of his child, Jessica Biel. But what caught me off guard was just how much his lyrics would apply to my relationship with Richard! Justin’s ā€œMirrorsā€ really captures how I feel about Richard – so much so that it’s definitely one of our main songs. When I look at Richard, I know I’m looking at the person who is my other half, who has filled a part of my heart that had been empty for some time but who also fills a part of my heart that I had no idea needed to be filled!

Diamonds – Rihanna

You’re a shooting star I see
A vision of ecstasy
When you hold me, I’m alive
We’re like diamonds in the sky

Okay so even though there are really sweet declarations of love in Rihanna’s hit, that’s actually not the reason I chose this song. When it came out, I was obsessed with the song as a piece on its own. Rihanna knows how to make ā€˜em! And so, I would start singing it or humming it randomly and every so often around Richard. At one point, he just asked ā€œWhat song is that?ā€ And I played it for him and he liked it too. The words are just an added bonus, but it just makes me think of how Richard and I love introducing each other to new songs. šŸ™‚

Flowers in the Window – Travis

So now we’re here and now is fine
So far away from there and there is time, time, time
To plant new seeds and watch them grow
So there’ll be flowers in the window when we go

That part of Travis’ song makes me tear up every time I hear it. So, I can’t listen to this song all the time or I would be a blubbering mess! This song is written from the point of view of a person who was really cold and numb to everything before being in a relationship with his/her SO and how through falling in love this person can now appreciate the beauty of the world and see a beautiful future with them. Richard played this song one night for me randomly very early on in our relationship. And I just remember hearing it, listening intently to all the words, and I was just so flabbergasted. I asked him, ā€œIs that really how you feel about me at this point?ā€ And without hesitation, he said, ā€œThere’s no doubt.ā€

Mykonos – Fleet Foxes

Brother, you don’t need to turn me away
I was waiting down at the ancient gate
You go wherever you go today
You go today

ā€œMykonos" has one of the most beautiful, haunting beginnings. Those beautiful harmonies draw me in immediately, and they’re what made me love this song from the get-go. Now, although the song isn’t about a romantic relationship, the lines above remind me to be patient when Richard and I have disagreements. ā€œYou don’t need to turn me away/I was waiting down at the ancient gate.ā€ Although I know we’re all human and we’re all bound to be guilty of it at one point or another, sometimes we don’t know what else to do but walk away. And while that hurts, we always tell each other that if either one of us gets upset at the other or if we both get upset at each other simultaneously, we will always give each other space when we need it but we will be waiting to reconcile with an open heart and an open mind.

Spanish Radio – Biffy Clyro

Hey! You can be lost at the same time as being found!

Richard played this song for the first time when we were doing chores around our apartment. I loved the beat, and we ended up taking a break and listening to it together. And when I looked into the lyrics, none of them really hit me until the last two lines. ā€œYou can be lost at the same time as being found!ā€ Richard definitely makes me feel that way. I mean, there are so many unanswered questions that I have about myself and some parts of my life, but I also have Richard who makes me feel like I have found something so special even in the midst of the chaos that is life. šŸ™‚

Feel My Love – Adele

I’ve known it from the moment that we met,
No doubt in my mind where you belong.

After Richard played me ā€œFlowers in the Windowā€, I played him this beautiful Adele cover because it expressed how I felt about him at the time – and still do!

Open Your Eyes – Snow Patrol

Get up, get out, get away from these liars
‘Cause they don’t get your soul or your fire
Take my hand, knot your fingers through mine
And we’ll walk from this dark room for the last time

Richard shared this song with me when he wanted to show me the cool music video. The video was filmed by a guy driving around Paris at 5:00 am. It’s so cool to see the end result of that and to see Paris at that time during the day. Paris is one of my favorite cities in the world. šŸ™‚ I loved the song, and I started listening to it a bit more. The lines that I have quoted here really reflect how much strength I feel Richard has given me to detach myself completely from negative people and negative energy in my life. It’s something I’ve wanted to do for a while, and I just knew I had to build the personal courage to do it for myself. And Richard was definitely one of the most important people in making that all happen.

You Are In Love – Taylor Swift

You can hear it in the silence, silence
You can feel it on the way home, way home
You can see it with the lights out, lights out
You are in love, true love

I might get some flack for it, but I’m all about keeping it 100% honest with you guys. So, I’m going to go ahead and say it: I was never a fan of Taylor Swift. Something about her songs when I was younger just didn’t click with me. She’s been wildly successful at such a young age, and on that level, I definitely respect that. Her music just never hit me the way that other artists’ work has throughout the years. But her 1989 album really did stike a chord with me, and the bonus track ā€œYou Are In Loveā€ immediately made me think of Richard. It actually made me tear up a bit when I first heard it, and I made him listen to it even though he’s not a big fan of hers either. We know we’re in love with each other. I can definitely feel it not only when we tell each other or show each other how much we love each other, but I can feel it in the silence, which can be so much more profound than words or actions could ever be.

I’ll Be Seeing You – Billie Holiday

I’ll find you in the morning sun
And when the night is new
I’ll be looking at the moon
But I’ll be seeing you

ā€œI’ll Be Seeing Youā€ is so special to me because it has helped me cope with the passing of some of my loved ones. A few days after Richard and I parted in January, I was listening to some music on shuffle, and this song came on. It made me think of how even being 3,226 miles away from him, I would be seeing him in every little thing around me. Something about Billie’s incredible voice and the beautiful melody of this classic just made me feel comforted at such a delicate time.

Rather Be – Clean Bandit

When I am with you, there’s no place I’d rather be

I love the upbeat feel of this hit! But most of all, I love the words because they could not be more true to me and to Richard as we’re fighting the distance. ā€œWhen I am with you, there’s no place I’d rather be.ā€ Yas, Clean Bandit, YAS! It’s just one simple line, but it’s my feelings exactly. I cannot tell you how excited I am that he will be visiting next month! There’s very few people in my life who makes me feel as happy as he does and there’s nobody who makes me feel as loved as he does.

All quoted lyrics founds on www.azlyrics.com.

Inspired by the LDRBN prompt: Ten Songs

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